Monday, October 24, 2016

Monday Morning Minutes

I had a bit of an emotional weekend, which I will eventually share all over the internet when the time is right...but it was also a good one.

1. Yankee and V did quite well this weekend at their Novice debut. I was worried about this being their move up show, considering it was a Team event and those can sometimes be a little bit more difficult, but they handled it well!

Thats his XC face
Dressage went better, according to V, and he was more relaxed with her this time around. His strength has never been dressage, despite being abel to lay down some good scores in the past. Judges tend to not like him because he is not flashy-- despite the fact that he has 3 solid gaits, but he is capable of high scores. I've seen it and ridden it! I doubt will ever be one of those low 20s type horses, but he sure can jump. Eventually they will get to the low 30s with them, but I thought a 39 was respectable for her level and considering they had gotten quite a few mid 40s together in the past, I thought this displayed how hard she has been working at this dressage game.

He has also been taking his nap game seriously

VERY seriously 
What really impressed me was her stadium round. The first few shows she had really buried him the to fences and he would chip or jump awkwardly almost every time. Additionally, he was not respecting her half halts whatsoever. They have worked tirelessly on stadium and I think it showed. Her round was wonderful and he jumped beautifully. I also have a theory that he jumps better over higher fences anyways, but they made me proud this weekend.

XC gave her some new questions, like a ditch, bank and corner (literally WTF, at novice? Since when?) and they tackled it brilliantly. I can't wait to see the pro pics!

Overall they ended 11th out of a large division of 25 at their first novice together and I couldn't be more proud and excited for the next year!

2. B is 100% sound. FINALLY. He was cleared for under saddle work and we've been going for long walks around the farm and working on fun things like lateral work, walking over poles and halts. Riveting stuff people. I had been holding back on trotting because he still felt a little off to me, but yesterday he felt 100% so I will slowly add in more work and eventually some jumping. Dare I say this, but I am feeling super lucky this wasn't a worse injury and it healed relatively quickly.

Hai, you have snax yes?

3. Hackabit. I've been playing with B's set up for a while. I  refused to admit for a while that he simply hates bits, but I've come to that conclusion along with others-- trusted folks like trainers, so please, keep your opinions to yourself. I hate that I even have to say that, but we all know people on the internet can be judgmental assholes. Something I'm working on too. ANYWAYS. I switched him to a hackamore  a while back after playing around with several different bits with no luck, settling on the hackamore. He went quite well in it and happily went around courses under 3ft quite well. I've never actually had a horse respond so well to a hackamore--the difference is night and day. He just hates bits of all kinds and never really relaxes with one in his mouth.

However, once the jumps go up, B starts to tune out the hackamore. I don't blame him at all, to be honest. If I was a big mean jumping bean machine I think I would tune out my plebe of a rider when the fences go up and attack with gusto too. Its not that I need more control  of him, or want to rip the shit out of his face, I just needs a little finesse. Its costly to have a horse not listen to a half halt when the fences are bigger, and I'm not willing to have that be an option.

I've debated trying the combo hack bits, but I tried one on Yankee once and it was WAY too much for him and he's a lot less sensitive than B. That, and the fact that they're usually $100+, I didn't want to drop that only to have B reject it 1000%.

Tired from an hour hack in "warmer" temps. Time for that coat to go!

Enter, my franken-hackabit creation. It looks ghastly, but honestly, I think its perfect. B really seemed to love it as well. This creation is simply a bridoon hanger added under the hackamore, with two reins. The bridoon is a super small straight bar snaffle--one I NEVER thought in a million years he would like. One rein attached to the small snaffle, and the other attached to the hackamore. Also, I added a standing martingale, because hot TB with 3 weeks indoors and hardy any turnout. This obviously had to be attached to a noseband since you can't out a standing on a hackamore, but it will eventually come off again once he settles back into a routine of work and isn't a giant ball of energy.

I played with this  set up a few times just to make sure his first test ride wasn't a fluke, and I have to say, this might be our solution. For one, his walk is his worst gait--pretty resistant to relaxation and giving with his jaw and poll. I know its resistance, and despite how soft my hands are or how mild the bit, he still is inconsistent with acceptance. With the hackabit, he was 100% relaxed.  Seriously. Even when he would shy at something or get lit about horses running around all it took was a half halt, and instead of flinging his head around and flailing, he simply came back to me and lifted his back and stepped under himself. Say what?! For two, I adore two reins. They act separately and each have their own purpose and I really feel a difference with each one. I luff it.

A happy B

I am curious to see how this transfers to jumping, but I can say that at the WTC, he has continued to show no objections. I am truly stunned because I stayed away from thinner bits, thinking he would hate them. In the wrong hands, thin bits can really be awful and are considered a little more severe than normal, fatter snaffles. But maybe, this whole time B has been trying to tell me that he has a small mouth and fat bits are not his jam? Interested to see if this transfers to dressage and their legal bits and whatnot--I will be trying this. Sidenote does anyone have a thin loose ring for sale, haha.

blurry proof
4. New blankets. I had a Dover gift card that I've been waiting to use for just the right time, and Dover's tent sale was the perfect opp. They had Amigo medium weights for FIFTY DOLLARS each, so I snagged two--one for Yanks and one for B. They look really sharp AND satisfied my type A by completing a full set of Amigo blankets for the babies--sheet, lightweight, medium weight and heavyweight. I can die happy now. Sadly got no pics, because I forgot, but they are quite nice.

Stock photo

I'm excited that this week we finally have normal fall temps and riding outside will be glorious and not sweaty. What are you all up to this week?

Friday, October 21, 2016

Friday Feels

FINALLY fall is back! Aka torrential downpour and cold temps, but honestly I am OK with it. Weird summer temps at the end of October is not okay in my book.

ALSO, I got to ride Yankee again last night! (yes Emma I got a 2pointTober time :D)

Might be my new fav recent pic of hims
Its always kind of funny when I say "got to ride" my own horse, but thats kind of how it works with a lease. I could be a dick and just tell V whenever thats she's SOL and I am riding, but I try to be nice and work around her.

Considering they leave for Team Challenge today, I am really happy I got to get one more school in on him before the show--kind of like a tune-up.

Due to rain, we were sequestered indoors and had to dodge approximately 4 other riders. Our indoor at New Farm EME is so much smaller than at old EME, so I stuck to a ton of walking warm-up and basic 20m trot circles until the arena cleared. Once it was just me and my favorite other boarder, we got to work.

I wanted to work on the canter a little bit more, but as I said yesterday, his trot was mostly garbage the entire ride so I focused on that a lot more before we got to the fancy stuff (lateral work). I spent about 20 minutes really asking for collection and straightness and with a ton of give and take, finally getting his 14 year old self to participate again like the Yankee I know and love.

Ahh, on the forehand trudging. Such bad habits Yankee

After some intense and better trot work than yesterday (see above LULZ) I wanted to close the ride with some fun lateral stuff and brief canter work.

Of course, his right lead was now the more troublesome, as he took to the shoulder popping corrections on the left lead quite easily yesterday. Hard to describe was was going on with his right lead, but it almost felt like his hind end just wasn't stepping up and it was then pushing him into crookedness. Yanks gave me some sass (how dare I ask him to work properly) but eventually worked through it as well. Good boy!

so behind the vertical I can't even. Classic Yankee evasion. 
Thats the fun thing about older horses that just get into bad habits--so much easier to "fix"!

The lateral work was such a joy. I love the fact that Yankee just knows his shit and executes things with such lightness. I barely have to touch his sides, move an inch or ask for more and he just responds. He's amazing.

I forgot, even after almost 12 years together, how connected we are as a pair and it was magical.

I barely thought about anything during our ride, especially in the end playing with lateral work. Renver, travel, side-pass and half-pass it all had me feeling euphoric and relaxed.

trot work

Super confusing canter work, Essentially, halt to canter then serpentine with changes of lead through walk, then half pass to halt, to canter to halt; switch sides and repeat
There's something incredible about familiarity that gives me joy. I love Bacardi, I really do,  but often I leave the barn more worked up than satisfied because he is so dang impossible sometimes. Nothing is ever really easy with him, and while I adore training and working with him, sometimes I really need a ride on my OG to remind me WHY I'm working with such a brat of an OTTB. Yankee used to be a brat too, and now he's an angel. I know that B will get there someday too, and thats pretty cool.

Sidenote--RRP is coming up and I got a press pass (yeah Blogging!), so I will absolutely be there! Duty calls for work, so I can only come down Saturday, but thats when the fun stuff is anyways. So if any of you will be in KY for RRP next weekend, hit me up! I know I am stoked to meet Lindsey and Slider, so if anyone else will be there....

Thursday, October 20, 2016

Booty Werk

First off, I am super pleased with the blogging community right now. Turns out, most of us aren't horrible assholes to animals and actually care about animal welfare (speaking in regards to the ML incident), unlike a certain blogger who wrote literally the shittiest post I've ever read (I was going to link it, but then realized that garbage doesn't even deserve a name drop). We might be jerks to each other every now and again, but at least we give a damn abut our horses and I think that's the point most people were trying to make. Laughing that the witch hunt terminology got thrown around again. I'm sorry, but if one creates an image and a pattern for themselves, they damn well better answer to it and officials should stop sweeping it under the rug like its NBD.

Second, responses to my post yesterday were incredible! I didn't have time to respond to everyone, but know I did read them all! Very insightful information. Guess I need to hop to writing a will.

In other news, I rode a horse! And it was mine!

Sadly, was not Bacardi, but I do always enjoy hopping Yankee every now and again even if I am rather riding unfit.

Quick sidetone on B; he IS healing and I am grateful for that! He is 100% weight bearing at this point and a lot less miserable, and 100% sound at the walk. I of course got excited, and tossed him on the lunge with just a halter and within 2 seconds of trotting I could easily see that he was still 90% lame at the trot. WHOMP WHOMP. Though soundness at the walk is good. It means we can increase his turnout to all night in the paddock and he can finally get out of prison. He's been wonderful this last week, and has actually enjoyed getting groomed and loved on, since thats all I can do with him right now. He also is saint for bandaging and I am grateful for that too since the hole has not filled in yet and he will have to stay bandaged. Pretty sure I spent over a $100 on gauze and duct tape in the last two weeks though....

This weekend V is heading to Team Challenge with EME and I am super stoked for her! I actually rode two years ago in this on Amy's horse Steady, since she had just had surgery. It was so much fun and I had never catch rode before! It is one of my favorites and over the years I have always had a blast on Yankee.

We came together yesterday to work on some last minute flatwork before they head out, since her scores are still not where they could be. Part of this is due to her greenness at this level, which is 100% OK, and the other is due most likely to his colic surgery. V has primarily been riding him since then and he's been allowed to skimp on things like energy and straightness for quite some time. Scores in the 30s are possible, we just need to figure out how to get them there together!

I am actually thoroughly impressed with V, don't think otherwise. She has been working really hard and has gotten much better about putting everything together to get the package. For one, she can actually get all her transitions, and for the most part have a round horse. When she doesn't she knows what she has to do and does it before I can correct her--which is huge! The only thing I really have to remind her on is her inside hand creeping, which I also do.

If you have four minutes, here's a clip of us working on the trot, which is is worst gait. The first minute or so is actually pretty entertaining, but otherwise its mostly the same things--ask ask, correct, get for a few strides, lose, repeat. You know, training stuff.

From the ground I have noticed that he has taken to two particularly bad habits recently...
1. Diving on the forehand when he doesn't feel like working 
2. Popping his right shoulder out to tracking left

classic shoulder pop

For now, I don't think V can correct those things swiftly, but she is getting better at asking for more energy, which is the beginning of working on things. Ultimately, as long as he's not shuffling along, his trot is acceptable and I am pleased with her progression and learning :) Dressage is hard yo.

Afterwards, I hopped on to try and figure out the shoulder popping and serious straightness issues, especially at the canter. 

First off, I give V mad props for progressing how she has; Yankee is THE wiggliest horse on the planet right now and getting him to simply trot with energy was like asking him to jump the moon. Not sure if he's just gotten away with laziness, but damn, I was huffing by the end of my ride.

Booty werk
Secondly, I essentially had to ride a VERY strong counterbend to get any semblance of correct left lead canter, so this is something I will be trying to work on weekly I think. I would counterbend for half a revolution then release my inside hand as a reward and repeat. Eventually I got him to lift his shoulders a little and actually work that inside hind.. but DAMN, he is weak and CROOKED.

Struggle bus to be correct. Note the reward release here

Easier this direction, but a little flat

That explains the diving down a little bit.

I then tried to get some semblance of correct trot (using the butt, rounding, energy) but was met with tension and I conceded. I knew I wasn't going to ride well enough to work on his worst gait, so I left it for another day and ended taking him for a walk.

Still a bit on the forehand

I was super happy to ride at least--its been over 3 weeks! I also got to try out my ew half chaps (my old ones were SO dead) and the Roeckls I bought. I now see why everyone loves them...they're amazing.

Wednesday, October 19, 2016

What Do Wednesday: Dead and Gone

Today's topic is a little morbid, but definitely necessary to think about at some point in one's life. If you're me, its at random times while driving on the highway, or while laying awake at night, or in the middle of a workout. Because crazy.

No but really
Often, though very randomly and without reason especially, I am totally gripped by fear while driving; knowing that I could die in the next few minutes with one blink of an eye or careless mistake by another driver. I then usually spend the next few minutes trying to calm myself down, but those fears are legit. Cars are giant speeding death bullets and the risk is very real.

I also frequently have moments where I am positive I have cancer, because my elbow is hurting, or that  I am dying of some unknown disease because my ankles hurt in the morning--because thats just my luck. Doom and gloom seems to follow me, so I honestly wouldn't be surprised if something simple kills me. I've somehow managed to escape near death  several times in my life, so I have a feeling I will die by like accidentally chopping off my finger cooking, passing out at the sight of blood and then dying from blood loss...I know, I'm a lunatic.

Usually later though I muse at my weirdness and untimely anxiety attacks, but my brain always brings up a good point. You are not guaranteed tomorrow. What happens then?

As an unmarried, childless young adult with no house, and very few assets, a will is not something that is considered standard. However, I will very soon have student loans (thanks grad school), eventually a car payment because The Boss is slowly dying, my bank account, medical bill debt, all  my random shit, like paintings and whatnot, the dog and two gorgeous Thoroughbreds.

What happens to them if I die?

Legally, per the state, it would all go to my parents, including the horses.


Love them, but I know what would happen. They would pay BO to care for them and keep them in work and then list them for sale. Not being horse people, I doubt they would vet the prospective owners much, and or car where they end up, then donate the money from their sales to charity. Mom might donate Yankee to a therapy program, but they would ultimately get sold and that eeks me out.

Also, as I am sure you all are aware by now, B is a delicate flower princess with so many opinions. Granted, he is world's better than when he came to me two years ago, but he is not for everyone. He is quirky. He is spooky. He snorts a lot. He is energetic and strong. He has opinions. And he is ACCIDENT PRONE. Finding someone with the patience for him would be tricky,.....and the main reason I have put off listing him for sale. Plus, I'm attached and all now. (yes, I bought him as a re-sale).

So much sass.
Thinking of where they might end up if I died tomorrow is scary, and it leads me to wanting to draft a will right meow.

I have a few people in mind (and they are aware of it) that I know would agree to be their "guardians" until a sale is final. I am actually positive Yankee would never get sold because he is an literal saint and perfect gentleman and everyone loves he might stay with whomever I choose. It would take a special person to accept ownership of B, and I doubt that would ever happen. Just knowing someone would have his best interest at heart if I die though is reassuring to my brain though.

However, I legit have zero clue how to go through with these ideas, since horses aren't children and are more considered property, so of course I'm coming to the internet for advice like any normal blogger would.

This week I am very curious to know if any of you have your horses written in your will, if you even have one at all, and how you went about "dividing" them up. Obviously a lawyer probably helped with the legal jargon, but did you turn over ownership to someone, or appoint them a "guardian"?; did you leave them money to cover expenses until sale, or did the appointed owners agree to cover costs?

Seriously curious about this one...

Monday, October 17, 2016

Monday Morning Minutes

I hope all of you had wonderful weekends! Mine was relaxing and productive in the ways of gym, school and work. Yay for never resting even when you're resting.

Quick catch up on weekend activities and things of note;

1. Unless you live under an actual rock, or in the middle of the boondocks with no internet or cell service, you know the shit show that erupted after this (and so.many.others) photo showed up shortly after ML Xc round at Fair Hill.

Yep. Thats blood. Again.

Sweet Jesus, again? This is the 4th documented occasion from ML in a short amount of time (a year or so I think, someone fact check me here), second on this particular horse and its extra.

My favorite comments so far have been one special looney who said all the photos were photoshopped (impossible, considering it would have to have been done in real time, from a camera, LULZ--obvs a conspiracy amirite), SEVERAL people who still call us all "haters" for jumping her throat--pleading an "accident"-- LULZ OKAY, and the others who say "the procedures were followed and the rules were enforced"...HAHAHAHA. Okay, fair enough, but IF 'the rules were followed' then there was ALSO a coverup involved...not to mention her groom who wiped the blood away with a black towel immediately following the XC round. I smell something fishy. Thinking certain organizations don't want to mar their image or their special ML with scandal, but the scandal is here and we are furious. 

I honestly hope Amanda uses her loud blogging voice and rallies the people, again. Almost fruitless last time (JESUS, why was there a last time?? Enough already ML!), but we need a rallying point and I now she can get it done. There's no "witch hunt" here this time either. Its a goddamn protest and it needs to be loud. How can someone get away with this, REPEATEDLY? The worst part? She won on this horse. ABHORRENT.

Lets let our voices be heard on this one.

On a lighter and more positive note....

2. V and Yankee competed this weekend and it went well! A farm near us was holding some fun CT's and riders were allowed to enter 2 divisions if they wanted, or do 1-3 dressage tests and one SJ round. V chose to enter the BN and N CT in preparation for Novice Team Challenge next weekend. 

She has REALLY been amazing the last 4 weeks, and has been working her butt off on the flat. We have a lesson together every Friday, and she also participated in a Dressage clinic a few weeks ago. Her scores unfortunately did not reflect her massive progress on the flat, as they were LITERALLY cutting trees down during her test. Like actually felling trees next to her ring. WTFFF, why?! I don't care how seasoned your horse is, thats bound to create some tension. Though I was proud her transition were smooth, it was more accurate than usual and well ridden... overall a large improvement from previous tests. Even the judge gave her condolences on the tests, which was at least nice of her to note. Regardless, she still placed well in both CT's, with double clear rounds in SJ and came out 2nd out of 3 in N and 4th out of 11 in BN. Good job guys, next weekend you'll kick butt :)

3. You might have noticed that Yankee is clipped too! YAS, its the best time of year--Clipping season!! Not only is it close to the actual best time of year (hallowthanksmas), but I generally get some additional income clipping horses and I ADORE coming up with designs for the boys. Also, the temps are skyrocketing into the 80s for this week (WHY) and their coats are heavy already because in normal circumstances it would be 40/50 instead of 80. Poor B was sweating in his stall today!

For this round, I keep it classy, since V has one more USEA show for the year and I don't know what design she wants anyways. Also, he kept stomping the flies like a total princess, even with fly spray, and even with a super steady hand....I made some mistakes. I simply cannot live with even one small nick in a perfect line so he got this weird swoopy, yet pretty high trace clip design. You could almost call it a blanket clip at this point...

majestic AF

B just got a very uninteresting low front bib trace, since he's stalled and not in work. Eventually he will get a high blanket clip with a super badass design. If any of you know what I'm planning, KEEP A LID ON IT.

4. B's foot.

He's enjoying his limited turnout time and stall rest like a gentlemen, and actually is about 75% sound at this time! No more awkward shuffling and limping, only a slight head bob! Progress. To keep him entertained I've been taking him on short walks, giving him short turnout and also getting back to trick training. He LOVES it, and it worked his brain. Win win. I also think he might have gained some weight thanks to barn staff stuffing his face full of hay 24/7 and not being in work. Not complaining.

Minus his evaporating topline, he looks damn good, AND weight-bearing!
I did mildly freak out yesterday when I changed his bandage to find a larger hole and some bloody discharge coming out of said hole. I immediately texted the farrier (sorry fam, I know its Sunday, ILY IM SORRY) with my typical ask-the-professional-a-million-questions and he calmly assured me all was well and on track to healing. Apparently leakage and blood is a good thing and shows its clearing up, sealing and healing?? Whatever you say farrier, I still am freaked out...

I don't know if you can see/are interested in the blood, but its there. Just kinda mixed with clear fluid. BLEH GROSS. Also I really hate how magic cushion over time stains the hoof black...looks like dried blood to me. ANYWAYS, he IS getting better but god bless, I miss riding. I've ridden once in 3 weeks thanks to previous mild injuries and now this...just wanna ride. The boot has seriously been a lifesaver though, mad props to whomever suggested that to me!

5. Gel nails. I got them done for the wedding I was in last weekend and HOLY MOLY. After 8 days of wrapping, grooming, clipping and other barn work plus the gym, they haven't even been damaged. Not one chip. What is this sorcery?? Even OPI and home gel nails only last 3-4 days...color me late to the party.

I know most of us barn girls are generally content to be....dirty? Unkempt? Whatever. For the most part, I am unkempt and essentially live in yoga pants and oversize t shirts. But I do LOVE doing my nails. Its one of the few girly things is consistent with me. Sure, I do my makeup for going out, and somehow my hair always looks awesome, when really I'm testing the limits of dry shampoo. but nails? Gotta be painted. No exceptions. For one, it covers the dirt that builds up at the barn and if I need to run to the grocery or out to eat right after and without be able to get them perfectly clean I am not totally embarrassed/grossed out because the polish hides it. Second, I  just really like my nails being done. Pretty. Colors. Sparkles. NEED.

These gel nails are legit. Too bad they cost the same as a 50lb bag of fat supp for the boys. Hope they last a little longer, I'm in love!


Here's to a new week and a happy Monday!

Wednesday, October 12, 2016

Are You There Vodka? Its Me, Monica.

Wow, amazing what a whiny rant on your blog, a wedding, a bonfire, heavy drinking (seriously so much drinking. Felt like college.) and a few days (like 9) can do for one's sanity. So therapeutic.

Last week, I am sure my close friends all thought I was crazy when I stated in text that I was done done with horses but I assure you, that was desperation talking, not me. Apologies, friends--you know who you are.

Thank you internet friends, for all your kind comments. I don't think you know how helpful all of you  are in times of frustration and sadness. When Yankee had surgery it was the only thing that kept me grounded. That and real life friends, but SERIOUSLY, I love bloggers.

Now that my emotions had time to recover and realize winter season is most likely not going to be as magical as first thought, I've been able to formulate a plan going forward. My plan is to not form a plan because HORSES RUIN THEM.

Until yesterday, B had been 100% 3 legged lame with a heel rash to boot, thanks to constant wrapping. V has been a doll, taking care of it while I was out of town and hand grazing him during the days this week so he got out twice a day (once w me and once with her). He's gone slightly mad and almost killed me on our walks, but is dealing with it better than expected. I really thought we would have to ace him just so he didn't mangle himself or us...

Just think of the most insanely needy giant chestnut manchild--thats him. Besides assaulting me for kisses, loves and treats, he's been holding up his leg whenever anyone looks his way, acting like its been physically cut off of him and he's dying. Quite the drama queen.

Halp, dying
I was finally able to get to the tack store yesterday and took the suggestions of the internet and bought a Davis medicine boot. Not only did it work for soaking (praise the lort), but he was MUCH less lame with it on versus the diaper/duct tape wrap. Interesting. 

Considering he literally climbed me to get out of his stall & hand walking was not working to keep him sane (MANNERS CHILD), I decided to snag the only empty paddock and toss him out there for a little bit and see what happened.

Worst thing that could happen is that the boot would come off and I would have to spend the next 40 minutes cleaning and disinfecting the foot. Whatever. He needed to get out of prison. I figured there was no way he would run around on a lame leg.

maximum derp speed


Ok. So, dumb horse is dumb. I assure you, he is still 95% lame and I don't really understand how he cantered, but he did. Evidence on my instagram. He did immediately regret the decision, and it was quite comical. 


I couldn't help but laugh. Only my horse would forget he was near dead lame and run around in the paddock like a dumbass and then stumble and limp and do it all over again. Whatever B, glad you're enjoying yourself. He continued to hobble around for another ten minutes or so, then settled to graze. He really seemed happy to be out, and I'm pleased he didn't tear around too much and got to get out for a little bit with only mild crazies. I don't blame him though, he's been inside over a week with just hand grazing. Not quite the 20 acre field he's grown accustomed to, but this at least gets him outside! 

Still somehow looks fancy....


Moving forward, he will get an hour of turnout each day (if he can behave) and then I will hand graze in the evenings. I'm going to test the durability of that boot and keep using it until its not needed, however long that is.  Solid $40 purchase though.

Hopefully, gradually, he will get back to normal and we can at least hack out at the walk. I fear the thought of his already sad topline disappearing completely...

Monday, October 10, 2016

1000% Done

I've had a really hard time writing any posts for the last week because I am so fucking bummed out about horses right now I could cry and formulating coherent, non-whiney sentences is difficult.

First it was colic surgery for Yankee (goodbye all the dollars. Literally. All.)

Then shoe issues for MONTHS with B (more dollars spent on and insane number of farrier visits, lameness, not riding)

Then after a few successful and fun shows, B got a clogged tear duct (surprisingly expensive vet visit).

Then, he lacerated his hock.

Then, his knee.

And now, punctured his foot.

I can't. I really can't.

These last four injuries happened within 8 days of each other. I wasn't really freaking out, more just in denial that this was actually possible for one horse to do in such a short period of time...and how?? 

I know, I know, it really could be worse and I've been there with Yankee. I thought for sure he was dead. But he didn't die and here we are.

But god DAMMIT I am bummed out. 

This latest injury is pretty rotten. The tear duct, hock and knee were healing  well and showing no signs of lasting issue and we were enjoying our light hacks around, looking forward to rated show in November. Now, he's stuck in a stall for WEEKS.

I got a text from the barn staff last week saying he came in with a cut pastern, swollen leg and was unable to walk. Like, at all (still true).


Once I finally got to leave work to tend to The Princess, the swelling had gone down significantly, but it was pretty obvious which leg was hurting. He literally was holding it up, looking at me with the saddest eyes I've ever seen. Not the offending pastern cut that the barn staff originally thought. Cool and tight tendons was a sigh of relief. All I need is a tendon injury right now...BUT, what I did find I thought was an abscess since it was bleeding and B wouldn't put weight on it. I soaked, wrapped and left his foot for my saint of a farrier to examine the next day thinking it would be easy enough and clear up quickly.

Upon further examination though, farrier deemed it a puncture wound...which is much more difficult and risky to care for. The leg swelling must've been from the cut, which went down immediately and was not in any relation to the foot injury. It looks like he stepped on a large, sharp rock, indenting the sole and creating what look like a cracked crater. He also noted that a shod horse would have gotten the same injury since shoes barely lift the foot off the ground high enough to avoid large fucking rocks of death. UGH. Considering B is not weight bearing at this time, he runs the risk of hurting his RF leg as well as infection in the LF. The vet is concerned about foreign bodies, but the farrier thinks everything is out of there and we just need to let it heal on its own and keep it clean. Which is easier said than done, since he has to be wrapped at least once daily, keep his stall as clean as possible and keep him inside. This horse does not do inside well at all and I am worried about him losing his mind.

Minus the wound, that is one gorgeous TB foot
Jesus fucking christ B. 

B looks as miserable as I feel, and he is literally depressed. To make matters worse, I was gone all weekend and couldn't tend to him myself and had to have barn staff change his bandage and try to soak his foot (which he does not like). They sent me regular updates, with no changes. I did get one video of him flipping his shit during turnout because he was stuck inside when everyone else was leaving him. He was literally spin hopping in his stall since he can't use that was ridiculous. He  also still can't put weight on it today and he looks miserable.

I really shouldn't be surprised at all by this. My life is a literal shitstorm and it seems when things are finally going right, something like this happens. I am incredibly bummed out that our winter season most likely won't be a thing, unless a miracle happens, and yet again B gets one year older without any competition time. Not to mention the horrible pain he's in/dying of boredom being stuck in a stall. I am 1000% done with this at the moment and I'm having a hard time with feelings and frustrations. I really feel like I need to give this whole riding thing up right about now.

I'm having a hard time writing without constantly sounding like I'm complaining, so I'll sign off with the conclusion of that update. 

My poor little love

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