OUCH.

...says my bank account.

Not only is this the time of month that all bills are due, but I just paid for my first  HT, a schooling dressage show, and XC schooling for mid-April PLUS bought a lever noseband off eBay for $65.

I should be happy...but an empty account gives me anxiety. Like, lie awake at night anxiety.

Lets hope I make big money this week or I may have to curl in a ball and sob over what is my life. WHY DID I HAVE TO FALL IN LOVE WITH THE MOST EXPENSIVE SPORT. Well. The one that is the most expensive in relation to how much you get from it. Which is basically $0. Unless you count happiness. But happiness doesn't pay my entry fees. Or gas.

I shed a tear. Or few. BUT I am looking forward to them! I just have to sob for a while over my literally hard earned money getting pissed away in less than 10 minutes.

We had a glorious ride today though and it really put me in positive spirits. The pony was absolutely a gem; loose, free, relaxed, obedient. I didn't ride earlier this week due to the winter blues, but I plan on doing our weekly conditioning ride tomorrow, Thursday off, jump Fri, light work Sat, off Sun. due to my busy sch Thurs/Sun.

The schooling show is on the 7th and then we have two opps for XC schooling- the last two weekends in April. I'm not going to Rolex anymore, but its just as well since I NEEEEEED to school. Need.

Wish I had more flat pictures. Words are boring.

Also I'm sorry I ruined WD for a few. I was just...so traumatized.

Confidence Boost

These winter blues are a reoccurring thing apparently. Shitty rides (leaving me in doubt for this season) and missing my boy have made my life seem bleak. I've literally slept till 5PM the last two days thanks to being overworked and a lingering cold. It was miserable.

But, nothing like getting hit on at a gas station at 1am to make one feel better about things though.

oh wait.

No, nothing like buying things on Ebay you don't really need to make you feel better.

oh wait.

No, no, its, nothing like making bank at work because of March Madness. Yeah. Thats it.

Despite my boy being gone for a whole week without cell coverage (I feel like I'm dying not be able to talk to him. Oh the curses of growing up in a technology driven age.) it hasn't been too hateful.

oh wait.

I forgot. It snowed 7 inches last night...

WHERE THE HELL IS SPRING. Like seriously I have an event in less than 2 months and XC schooling in 3 weeks. But really, Yanks wasn't hateful this week, the whole two times I rode.  He had a bit of the Spring willies and jumpies but he was well behaved for our dressage school and put forth a lovely, soft effort.

I just LOVE that he is finally using his back end and really pushing through, even lunging. AND this is his worst direction, so I have high hopes for our scores this year.

I'm not being too optimistic about the AECs since there is no chance in hell that we would ever score a 29 with his TB trot and that tends to be the leaders' score from beginning to end. BUT if we can just twerk out with a solid XC school before the event, I feel confident going out training the first time and possibly scoring in the top 3. Maybe. That's be the tits.

We've been in relative work all winter and jumped once a week. His dressage is improving AND we've been at this level for 4 years.

Thanks to my unpreparedness in the past, we've been less than successful but I'm doing all I can to make sure we are 110% for Mill Creek. Last year I fell off there thanks to a last ditch decision to go and even at Queeny (2 months after) we barely prepped. I'm an idiot.

This is one of the most disjointed posts I've ever made but my brain feels like jelly.

I THINK I'M TRAUMATIZED BECAUSE MEARLE TURNED TO A ZOMBIE.

I promise I'll post better this week.