Saturday, April 21, 2012

I've Had As Much As I Can Take

Just when I thought life couldn't get ANY worse...we put my 3rd min pin down last night.

After tonka died in Dec., we adopted a 6yo min pin from the humane society. I'd had a min pin in HS and loved her, but she died of a rare blood disease. Tonky, suddenly died of a horrific seizure, and now this. I feel like the dog killer.

He was such a goofball!

He constantly had issues with his health and required a special diet and frequented the vet often. Just last week he racked up $500 after getting extremely sick.But we loved him anyways.

He was on the mend, but still weak, and tripped going down the stairs while going outside to potty. He broke his leg in half and we opted to put him down. The damage was severe, and I didn't have high hopes for a good quality of life afterwards. I thought the best thing to do was let him go. I spent my last $40 to my name doing the kindest thing I could think of for the little guy.

So here I am, 4 months later, my heart breaking yet again, only a few short weeks after Spirits death, and a couple months after Tonka's. I feel like people are judging me. I feel like the worst person in the world. Maybe if I had had a couple thousand more dollars laying around I could have tried to fix Vinny. Maybe I just shouldn't have dogs. I've hadthe worst luck, and the only dog I've had for more than 2 years was my chihuahua that I spoiled for 12 years. After him, I guess I lost the dog luck charm. I feel like a dog killer, even though I do my best to provide them stellar care and I sacrifice everything I have for them.

SO now I have no drive to ride. Or do anything for that matter. With the combination of being 100% broke and loss after loss, I feel like I've hit rock bottom.



  1. I'm sorry that you've had such a string of bad things happen to you. Don't worry, once you hit rock bottom things can only get better! :) Watch, you'll be smiling again before you know it.

  2. I'm so sorry :(. I don't comment much but I read everything (the benefit of subscribing to you in Google Reader!) but wanted to make sure I came over here and let you know that one more person is thinking of you.

  3. oh man I am so sorry!!! hugs and hope that things get better!

  4. Sorry to hear. :( But please don't feel like a dog killer, I know you take excellent care of your animals and love them. It's life and unfortunately things are like that sometimes. :( Feel better.

  5. Don't blame yourself! These things happen, it's life and it totally sucks, but it's not your fault!! I'm so, so sorry for your losses. It's hard any time to lose one of your babies, but back to back like that is awful. Hang in there girl. You still have plenty of people on your side, rooting for you and those judgmental POS that are giving you a hard time don't matter. Hugs!!

  6. I'm sorry. It's really, really not your fault and no one worth a damn is blaming you. Bad things happen and you're had more than your share lately. :-(

  7. I'm so sorry this happened. Sending hugs your way, things can only get better from here just hang in there ...