Wednesday, December 30, 2015


This post lingered in the draft box for ages and didnt feel like coming to fruition for many reasons. Its been chillin’ for over two weeks... Luckily, the norovirus seems to have left my body and B has been let out of his prison today for the first time in about 9 days (poor dude/IHATEOHIOWEATHER).

SIDENOTE--my babies turn a year older in one day!

Back to goals and stuff.

I’ve always had a difficult time setting goals. And I think its SUPER cliché to do it at the beginning of the year. I think people should have evolving goals that actually get accomplished,  not make giant yearly statements. But here I am.

Hello. Its me.
Its taken me some to get over my weird dislike for setting actual goals, but over the last year it helped me stay true and given me something solid to work towards. I guess I’ll stick with it *drags feet*

In 2015 I was still new to this goals thing and floundered a little on specificity. I also had just gotten Bacardi and had really high hopes, but not sure where we could go, or what I could afford. Most of my goals were seriously generalized and therefore hard to determine success or failure.

Failure is also a ridiculousy mean word. As long as someone is working towards a goal, I consider is a success, but for blogging means I will assign Pass/Fail to each *drags feet*

So to recap for 2015:

General Riding:

1. Lateral work

-->PASS?  We first had to work on not having meltdown when leg was applied. Getting over things slowly. I wont mention the massive meltdown he had yesterday (idiot!) when I asked him to move over in the crossties. I will say his halted “lateral work” has improved tenfold under saddle. Forward lateral work under saddle is still a struggle. Progress?

2. Proper carriage

-->PASS. I cant even begin to describe the hurdles we have overcome with this. It was a slow start to the year, broken up by everything under the sun, but I can fully say YES this was achieved.

3. Canter departs

-->PASS.  Again, rocky and slow beginning. But at this time, MOST canter departs are smoothe and without flailing around like he’s dying. I consider this a success.

4. Tentative flying changes

-->PASS.  This was my only “fancy”  riding goal and he somehow came to me with the basics of flying changes already nailed in his weird head. Under the flailing, tantrums, bolting and hollowness that was his canter for several months, there were actual real flying changes in there. I tried to leave them alone for the most part since this is a more “upper level” thing, but it was fun to poke with on a good day. I would say theres a 75% success rate at this time. Rarely does he give me attitude, just doesn’t change behind.  In time.

Show Goals:
1.   April schooling show debut
2.   May schooling shows
3.   June USEA show debut
4.   End of year USEA show

Well. FAIL. None of this happened. None. Sure, we did a SINGLE schooling show in December..sure, I took him to a USEA event as a NC, but nope, did not do a single thing all year.  Its okay. I’m regrouping, we spent some time here and there working on fundamentals and we will charge headfirst into 2016 (but without causing head trauma).

My personal goals were more easily specified, since I am wicked hard on myself and demand perfection.

2015 Personal Goals were as follows:

 1. Gym: at least 3x's a week, stick to WODs, motivate thyself however possible

-->PASS....kind of. For the most part, this was easy to do. I enjoy Crossfit and pride myself on being fit. The community helps motivate me and I actually look forward to working out at my Box. Sadly, I was injured/sick WAY too much and some weeks/months this did not happen. I will still count this as a win, since injuries and sickness usually should not and cannot be worked through at the gym.

2. Food: no more than 2 "eat-out" meals a week, drink all the water & don't get bored with meals and cheat

-->Actual PASS here. I was so strict with my diet this year. I fell off the wagon the last 3 weeks but ITS FINE. In case anyone wonders, I am “half-Paleo”. Meaning I try to eat non-processed foods M-F & Sunday.  This means real food, not packaged. But I don’t count calories or any of that dumb shit. I just eat balanced meals with real food. Saturdays are for eating whatever I want. BRING ON THE FRIES. Drinking water is still difficult. Working on that.

3. Alcohol: Saturdays only

-->PASS. IF I drank at all, literally was never on any other day than a Saturday. Go me. This was not hard though, my party hardy days are more than over. I maaay have drank a mimosa or had one beer on a Friday or Sunday, but that’s not “drinking”. If I don’t get buzzed doesn’t count right?

4. Riding: 4x's week. Lateral work (forward, straight), Transitions (esp UP), introduce baby grids

--> PASS?FAIL? Who knows…this is hard to narrow down. Again, thanks to injuries I wouldn’t say we consistently rode 4 times a week. And until September, didn’t really have a nice place TO ride, and once we moved, we still had some injuries and sickness to work through. Whomp whomp.

5. Horse stuff: learn how to make polos, quarter sheet, tack box (and make them), actually clean my tack and attach tags to said tack

-->Well. I cleaned my tack more? FAIL.  But I obtained lots of polos and a quarter sheet…

6. Non-horse stuff: start to learn spanish, travel savings account, organize music, make Etsy better, art more

-->Horrible, tragic, 100 % FAIL. I didn’t do a single one of these things.



This brings me to the new year and new goals.

I want to say good riddance to 2015 and that it was awful and horrible and all the bad words...but despite the pitfalls, I dont have any ill feeling towards 2015. Sure, there were some really shitty moments, but nothing earthshattering. The high points really outweighed the lows, and I learned from the bad..which is good. Following?

Again I’m having a hard time specifically nailing down reasonable and attainable goals because the ribbon  whore/die hard inside me just wants to be perfect at everything. The realist is loling, knowing that you cant ever PLAN to succeed with horses, only have a battle plan to try and do so. I also have a tendency to really want for things I know I cant have. Like go to a USEA show every month. Monetarily, its impossible. I’m coming to grips with that. It’s a bit difficult among bloggers and barn friends who frequent shows without batting an eyelash at the cost, but I’m getting a grip with that side of me. Not everyone gets everything they want.

My loftiest goals with all the money in the world would be to go to one show a month, have lessons bi-weekly,  qualify for the AEC’s at BN and move up to Novice near the end of the year.


Alas, this is most likely out of my reach. I’m barely scraping together board (which I have NORAGRATS about, ever), but that’s about all I have in regards to extra spending money. Also I know Grad School will sadly eat up some of my freetime. ITS OKAY. Its starts in one week by the way.

 I’m coming to terms with it and no longer denying that I am a peasant in the horse world.

Therefore, and unfortunately, I am reining myself in with my riding and showing goals.

At this time, 2-3 sanctioned events would be cool. I would need to become a member again with USEA, which I’m debating NOT doing since BN doesn’t require it, but I’ve never not been a member. Will most likely suck it up and become a member again. Luckily B is already registered! Lookout world,  Anejo Highball is coming for you! AEC’s would be even cooler, but we need to MAKE it to an event before we head down that wonderful road. Before we even think about dropping half a paycheck on an event weekend, we need to double-time our exposure at schooling shows. We have two in January already, and since they are more affordable, I am more than willing to flail at those until we get our shit together. No real number in mind, just as many as possible. If I had to choose a number, 1-2 per month would be spiffy until Spring. Specific USEA shows have not been chosen, My favorites are KY Classique and Champagne Run and participating in Area champs would be cool too, but most likely not possible. I would adore to not chill at BN forever, since I’ve competed through Prelim, but I am OK taking my time with B. If he does well, we move up. If he needs time to chill, we chill.

Training wise, I would like to add some more toys to our training arsenal. This means more lessons. Specifically, one a month. That’s reasonably affordable and gets us some training time. Better than nothing! Super trainer is always fantastic and the homework she gives us is actually doable and worthwhile.

The problem with B is that his talent far exceeds his experience and his pea brain tantrums. While we are schooling flying changes, counter canter and jumping 3’3, hes only been to one show. ONE. And it wasn’t sanctioned. The one show he did attend as NC he literally could not function near the show rings. Brain fell out of skull. Even at home sometimes, he is not mentally present and we have horrible days (less and less nowadays, but still) Therefore, I’m a little unwilling to even drop money on USEA entries without getting some smaller experience first…but then the other part of me is like, suck it up or you will never get anywhere.

That’s all a little wordy.

Very specifically it boils down to this:

     1. 2-3 USEA shows. Start with BN. Don’t get eliminated.
     2.  1 schooling show a month
     3.  Jump a 3’6 course in competition
     4.  Jump 3’9 once
     5. Jump a training corner successfully
     6. Jump a combination line to skinny successfully
     7. Conquer water complexes
     8. Get clean single changes
     9 Begin Renver/Traver
    10.  Clean leg yields (straight/no head tossing)
    11.  Quite turn on forehand (no head tossing)
    12.  Define difference between Medium and extended trot
    13.  Learn 3 new tricks

Whew. That’s a big list. All things attainable IMO.

Personally, most of my goals feed off last year. Maintenance is key for me. I am a creature of habit. I do have a few specific personal goals though.

      1. Keep life perspective & try to show gratitude at every turn
      2. Obtain a pay raise
      3. Maintain a 3.0 GPA for my 1st year of grad school
      4. Clean out my email in box (holy 4,000 emails!)
      5. Learn SOME Spanish
      6. Add $2,500 to savings (not 401K, personal savings) (also LOL)
      7.  Squat 200 lbs (45lbs away!)
      8.  Deadlift 275 (65 to go!)
      9. One strict pull-up ( no assistance)
     10.  Run 3 miles without stopping
     11.  Complete a Tough Mudder
     12.  Pay off medical bills
     13.  Get another tattoo

Funny. I didn’t even try to make both lists number 13. Maybe TSwifts lucky number will be lucky to me too?

Heres to the New Year!

**The photography is from my photo session in the fall with the professional. They turned out pretty dang good! (Hilary Tebo Photography)


  1. Your personal goals make me feel like an underachiever. I'm like, try to make my Christmas candy last a full week. Currently failing. Possibly cross this one of the list already. Get it, girl!

  2. You have some big goals but I have no doubt that you will get them done! And I will be excited to follow along and see how they play out :) I think you are onto a terrific start.

    1. I sure hope you're right haha! Thank you <3

  3. Great goals, best of luck in 2016!

  4. Every year is crazy. I hate not following a linear path towards success. USDA shows left me in debt this year. Not doing that again

  5. I wouldn't count your show goals as fails for last year. The injuries and illnesses weren't your fault. :\

    I love your new goals! You can do it!!