As I sit here listening to my rap music, chomping on carrots and chugging coffee during my break after-work-before-work (job hopping is the most fun) I realized I found a renewed vigor for horsey life.
Could be that I'm moving to server at work. (I realize this is super prestegious position and I want you all to curb your jealousy for a hot minute before you get green with envy over that one. I'm not even mad bro. Sure, I'm a college graduate with 3 part time, minimum wage jobs, but at least I HAVE a job(s).) Could be that the Luke Bryan concert my boy bought us tickets for, is THIS Saturday. Could be that I had two AMAZING rides on the grumpynose this week. Could be that my lady time is now over. Or that spring is around the corner and all I can think about it show season. I don't know, but I'm just in a better mood, despite my downfalls.
Either way, its a relief not feeling so anxious and wound tighter than a two year old racehorse at his first race. I have major issues keeping myself calm and I'm pretty sure I actually need xanex prescribed to me to ingest on a daily basis so I don't have panic attacks but I feel the "ignore it until I can do something about it" or "it is the way it is" attitude works pretty good right now. No use stressing over things I literally have zero power to change. I had to put my big girl panties on and realize I have more than most do and even though I probably should be on welfare because I rarely eat anything besides carrots and protein shakes & I can barely pay rent, I don't believe in that system. I prefer to be poor and EARN my money. That gives me purpose. One day I will find my niche. I graduated college early and I'm only 22. Lots of life yet to live with my horse(s), boy and dog.
So thats how I beat my winter blues. I hope with Spring around the corner everyone is seeing the light in the wintery chasm. Despite the winter shitstorm headed our way, I'm trying to keep my head up. I just see it as a chance to play in the snow :)
As I mentioned, Yankee was amazing in the 2 flatwork rides over the past few days. I also started a riding "journal". Really, its the smartpak calendar they sent me, but I wanted to keep track of our rides without forgetting. I conveniently tacked up my calendar above my saddles, so I won't forget. That way I can look back to our last ride(s), see what went well, what didn't & see upcoming shows and events. Anyone else have a riding journal? I used to keep one back when I rode at NSF because I rode so many babies and I wanted to keep track, but Yankee's fell by the wayside.
One last reminder, my contest for a custom horse portrait ends THIS SATURDAY! To enter, just answer the trivia question in the comment section HERE.
Also I got an instagram just for Yankee! I have a personal one (checkmark115), but this new one is all horsey exclusive. If you want to add me, its ottb_eventing