It seems that winter is finally receding and spring has turned the corner.
With this though, I am not positive that I'm as excited as I should be.
I think I'm happy I might be able to crawl out of the pit of despair that is subzero temps and non-riding anguish (its been like 8 weeks or some shit), but at the same time I am DREADING the mud that follows a forecast like this
And then I was like....
And then I remembered I live in a godforesaken state with no goddamn arena (first world probs) and my soul dies a little more when I realized my only riding space is an open drainage field that essentially is a pond March-May.
Because whats the point of having goals and dreams anyways right
Theres only so much road work I can do with a half cray, underworked, hot, OTTB before it gets repitive and a little dangerous. Only so much appreciating that I have a horse, petting said horse, feeding said horse, looking at said muddy horse in field, cleaning said horses' stall, spending all my money on said horse, before I go clinically insane.
He needs to be lunged. He needs to be schooled. He needs to be RIDDEN. INEEDTORIDE.
UGH UGH UGH.
I DO NOT know how I did this as a child/highschooler.
Don't you just wish sometimes you could go back in time and bitchslap the ungratefullness out of your college aged self?
I had an arena for 4 years and half the time only stressed about shit that doesn't even matter now. BUT I COULD RIDE AT LEAST.
Can't now, and its literally my only "happy place/release".
I fed the horses the evening and about drowned in mud 4 inches deep. I kid you not, its already everywhere and it hasn't even rained yet. EVERYWHERE.
I think It really it almost worse than snow and ice and -bajillion degrees. It is.
So while DST is like a national equestrian holiday and I should be ecstatic I now have 2 hours of sunlight after work instead of one...but I'm like...but, mud.
I still cant ride.
So I think its even worse.
Literally, not figuratively, cannot wait utill May.
Until then, I guess B and I will continue to morph into fat sacks of lumpy potatoes.