OK so without further ado, the second part of the Liebster award, which is harder than you think BY THE WAY....11+ blogs that have less than 200 followers. I picked 13 because more than a few were already nominated. I read them all!
Poor Woman Showing
CONTACT
Tear Drop Winken
A Work In Progress
Diary of The Overanxious Horse Owner
The Grey Horse
The Amazing Jumping Saddlebred
Dapple of My Eye
Chesnut Mare Syndrome
Comedic Eventing
Hunter Barbie Takes on Eventing
Four Mares No Money
The WonderMare
All who were nominated, if you want to participate, you first give 11 random facts about yourself, answer the 11 questions I give you, make up 11 more questions and nominate 11 more blogs. Why the 11, I don't know.
My questions:
1.Which horse in your life has been your favorite and why? Leased, owned, ridden etc.
2. What is your fav/least fav thing about your current barn?
3. Biggest pet peeve?
4. What is the scariest horse related incident you've been involved in? (colic, trailer accident, etc)
5. Post a pic of your fav throw back & why.
6. Netflix or redbox?
7. Tell us your plan of attack in the event of a zombie apocalypse.
8. Coke or Pepsi?
9. Iphone or Droid?
10. Favorite meal.
11. Biggest obession besides horses.
Sunday, June 30, 2013
Wednesday, June 26, 2013
Its Leibster Season PTI
TeeHeee.
Its that time of year again when we all nominate each other, answer questions, read question and learn lots about each other. I got 4 nominations from:
Little Bay Horse
Grey Brook Eventing
I Trot On
The Jumping Percheron
Thanks ladies! Love you long time.
The rules state you have to link back to the blogs that nominated you, answer the 11 questions and state 11 random facts about you, come up with 11 more questions and nominate 11 more....thats exhausting. It took me over an hour to answer these questions SO YOU BETTER READ THEM. But really I think everyone has been nominated but I will try my best to do that section in part II So some factoids about myself.
1. I can't smell. Never have, never will.
2. I gained 40lbs when I severed my achilles tendon in 2009.
3. It took me 2 years to lose that 40lbs.
4. I'm obsessed with HBO shows.
5. I got a very terrible score on my ACT thanks to a dreadful math score. I don't math.
6. Since I got my first phone at 12 I've gone through about 3 a year. I'm hard on phones. Meaning I drop them..on concrete, in water buckets, in pools, fall in fountains with them, put them in my bra and damage them etc.
7. I hate summer more than almost anything in life. More than people who don't use their turn signals when driving, wearing pants, or shaving my legs.
8. I've had the same 417 songs on my ipod since 2008.
9. I'm obsessed with the Kidd Kraddick in the morning radio show. I listen to him everyday.
10. I failed my drivers test the first time because I couldn't parallel park.
11. I'm 2 years younger than everyone in my graduating class. Graduated HS when I had just turned 17 and college when I had just turned 21. I used to hate it but I accepted it.
1. What's the last book you read cover-to-cover?
You're all going to laugh... its a vampire book series called House of Night. I read them all in a week (there are 6 of them haha.) I HEART READING.
2. Have you ever broken a bone, and if so how?
Technically no. But I'm the most accident prone. The most. I've gotten a nail shoved through my entire foot, badly dislocated my elbow, severed my achilles tendon and shredded my meniscus in my knee. The nail and elbow were horse injuries. Achilles was an accident at work. Knee was skiing. Gross right?
3. If you could chose any super-power, what would it be?
I would say mind reading...but I don't think I want to hear peoples inner monologues so I would say the ability to fly. That would be neat.
4. What would you change about the horse world that doesn't have to do with animal abuse or money?
I feel like everything revolves around money in the hrose world so I can't really answer this question. Catty owners/show people and overbreeding all have to do with money IMO. Because show peeps are rude because they think they are better than everyone because of their trust fund money. And overbreeding happens because bitches be thirsty for dolla bills and breeeeed the crap out of everything. Even nice breeds like QHs, Arabs, WBS and TBs. Too many.
5. What are those 'Baby on Board' signs for cars really for? Nobody have ever been able to give me a satisfying answer.
Its so in a possible wreck you can swerve and magically avoid those cars.
6. What are your 3 favourite words?
absolutely, cantankerous and fuck.
7. What's the most 'out there' thing you believe in?
Karma. One hundred percent believe this is a real thing.
8. Describe the last time you laughed out loud.
Literally anytime I'm on the "humor" pinterest board. Its straight up malarky on that page. Love it. But if you want to know the last time...I was naked...after a shower...looking at pinterest. It was awkward cuz parts of me were jiggling.
9. Mares, geldings or stallions?
GELDINGS. Oh my god geldings. Everyone else is just too hormonal.
10. Who would you most like to go on a trail ride with?
I would like to RIDE Man O War on my trail ride and go on one with The Oconners. Love them.
11. What's the most ridiculous thing you've bought for riding or horses?
Nothing too ridiculous but last summer, one of the many times I got hammered, I got on ebay and spent $130 on a german elastic breastplate with sheepskin. It overdrafted my account. But I love that breastplate.
1. If you could ride anywhere in the world, where would it be?
IRELAND OH MY GOD
2. Have you ever been out of the country that you live in?
Do the British Virgin Islands count?
3. What's your job, do you like it?
I literally hate 2 of my 3 jobs. I want to quit everyday. At my barn I deal with naughty horses, heat, freezing cold and other workers not doing their shit etc etc and I loathe it. I waitress at Buffalo Wild Wings and its made me hate humanity. My 3rd job I heart lots. I work at a Paint Bar. I bartend half the time and the other half I teach the classes. I CANNOT WAIT TO MOVE TO A REAL CITY WITH REAL JOBS.
4. Proudest moment with your horse?
Which one, haha. Dolly, beating out all the QHs at 4H fair winning grand champion hunter. Spirit, winning Pony Club Mega Rally over 46 other people. Yankee, oh man. So many moments. Most recent was XCs chooling when he took every single prelim fence....and I had my eyes closed.
5. Any horse tattoos?
Yep two. One on my foot that says "ride to live live to ride" with a little horse next to it. The second is a poem tribute to Spirit on my ribcage, titled "Ode to The Horse". They both really hurt.
6. Favorite place to haul out to ride?
When I lived in Ohio it was Twin Towers XC park... I lived 20 min from there and went once a week. Now its any of the trails around here.
7. Any other hobbies besides riding?
I collect beer tabs and movie stubs. Meaning I watch a lot of movies and drink heavily.
8. Most ridiculous piece of tack you've seen?
OH my god it wasnt tack but it was horse leggings. What the fuck.
9. Furthest distance you've taken your horse aka road trip, day haul, show, etc...?
9.5 hours, Columbia, MO to Columbus, OH for Equine Affaire. It was an eventful trip that required me replacing all four tires on the horse trailer...
10. Is this your first blog award?
Nope
11. Do you board or have your horse(s) at home?
Now I board and I hate it. Too expensive and barn drama...I can't even. I miss having my horses at home :(
Its that time of year again when we all nominate each other, answer questions, read question and learn lots about each other. I got 4 nominations from:
Little Bay Horse
Grey Brook Eventing
I Trot On
The Jumping Percheron
Thanks ladies! Love you long time.
The rules state you have to link back to the blogs that nominated you, answer the 11 questions and state 11 random facts about you, come up with 11 more questions and nominate 11 more....thats exhausting. It took me over an hour to answer these questions SO YOU BETTER READ THEM. But really I think everyone has been nominated but I will try my best to do that section in part II So some factoids about myself.
1. I can't smell. Never have, never will.
2. I gained 40lbs when I severed my achilles tendon in 2009.
3. It took me 2 years to lose that 40lbs.
4. I'm obsessed with HBO shows.
5. I got a very terrible score on my ACT thanks to a dreadful math score. I don't math.
6. Since I got my first phone at 12 I've gone through about 3 a year. I'm hard on phones. Meaning I drop them..on concrete, in water buckets, in pools, fall in fountains with them, put them in my bra and damage them etc.
7. I hate summer more than almost anything in life. More than people who don't use their turn signals when driving, wearing pants, or shaving my legs.
8. I've had the same 417 songs on my ipod since 2008.
9. I'm obsessed with the Kidd Kraddick in the morning radio show. I listen to him everyday.
10. I failed my drivers test the first time because I couldn't parallel park.
11. I'm 2 years younger than everyone in my graduating class. Graduated HS when I had just turned 17 and college when I had just turned 21. I used to hate it but I accepted it.
1. What's the last book you read cover-to-cover?
You're all going to laugh... its a vampire book series called House of Night. I read them all in a week (there are 6 of them haha.) I HEART READING.
2. Have you ever broken a bone, and if so how?
Technically no. But I'm the most accident prone. The most. I've gotten a nail shoved through my entire foot, badly dislocated my elbow, severed my achilles tendon and shredded my meniscus in my knee. The nail and elbow were horse injuries. Achilles was an accident at work. Knee was skiing. Gross right?
3. If you could chose any super-power, what would it be?
I would say mind reading...but I don't think I want to hear peoples inner monologues so I would say the ability to fly. That would be neat.
4. What would you change about the horse world that doesn't have to do with animal abuse or money?
I feel like everything revolves around money in the hrose world so I can't really answer this question. Catty owners/show people and overbreeding all have to do with money IMO. Because show peeps are rude because they think they are better than everyone because of their trust fund money. And overbreeding happens because bitches be thirsty for dolla bills and breeeeed the crap out of everything. Even nice breeds like QHs, Arabs, WBS and TBs. Too many.
5. What are those 'Baby on Board' signs for cars really for? Nobody have ever been able to give me a satisfying answer.
Its so in a possible wreck you can swerve and magically avoid those cars.
6. What are your 3 favourite words?
absolutely, cantankerous and fuck.
7. What's the most 'out there' thing you believe in?
Karma. One hundred percent believe this is a real thing.
8. Describe the last time you laughed out loud.
Literally anytime I'm on the "humor" pinterest board. Its straight up malarky on that page. Love it. But if you want to know the last time...I was naked...after a shower...looking at pinterest. It was awkward cuz parts of me were jiggling.
9. Mares, geldings or stallions?
GELDINGS. Oh my god geldings. Everyone else is just too hormonal.
10. Who would you most like to go on a trail ride with?
I would like to RIDE Man O War on my trail ride and go on one with The Oconners. Love them.
11. What's the most ridiculous thing you've bought for riding or horses?
Nothing too ridiculous but last summer, one of the many times I got hammered, I got on ebay and spent $130 on a german elastic breastplate with sheepskin. It overdrafted my account. But I love that breastplate.
1. If you could ride anywhere in the world, where would it be?
IRELAND OH MY GOD
2. Have you ever been out of the country that you live in?
Do the British Virgin Islands count?
3. What's your job, do you like it?
I literally hate 2 of my 3 jobs. I want to quit everyday. At my barn I deal with naughty horses, heat, freezing cold and other workers not doing their shit etc etc and I loathe it. I waitress at Buffalo Wild Wings and its made me hate humanity. My 3rd job I heart lots. I work at a Paint Bar. I bartend half the time and the other half I teach the classes. I CANNOT WAIT TO MOVE TO A REAL CITY WITH REAL JOBS.
4. Proudest moment with your horse?
Which one, haha. Dolly, beating out all the QHs at 4H fair winning grand champion hunter. Spirit, winning Pony Club Mega Rally over 46 other people. Yankee, oh man. So many moments. Most recent was XCs chooling when he took every single prelim fence....and I had my eyes closed.
5. Any horse tattoos?
Yep two. One on my foot that says "ride to live live to ride" with a little horse next to it. The second is a poem tribute to Spirit on my ribcage, titled "Ode to The Horse". They both really hurt.
6. Favorite place to haul out to ride?
When I lived in Ohio it was Twin Towers XC park... I lived 20 min from there and went once a week. Now its any of the trails around here.
7. Any other hobbies besides riding?
I collect beer tabs and movie stubs. Meaning I watch a lot of movies and drink heavily.
8. Most ridiculous piece of tack you've seen?
OH my god it wasnt tack but it was horse leggings. What the fuck.
9. Furthest distance you've taken your horse aka road trip, day haul, show, etc...?
9.5 hours, Columbia, MO to Columbus, OH for Equine Affaire. It was an eventful trip that required me replacing all four tires on the horse trailer...
10. Is this your first blog award?
Nope
11. Do you board or have your horse(s) at home?
Now I board and I hate it. Too expensive and barn drama...I can't even. I miss having my horses at home :(
- If you could travel to any place in world, where would it be and why? IRELAND. HORSES. PRETTY.
- If you could live in any historical period/location, where would it be and why? I think I would have liked to live in ancient Greece. Or the Middle Ages. So much history. No technology. Just pure human emotions and shit.
- If you had to change to an entirely new equestrian discipline, what would you go to? Wow thats a tough one because Eventing is the best ;) If I had to choose I would say Grand Prix jumping because they still jump badass fences. I would love to barrel race again but the IQ of most of the riders is below 70 and their horsemanship skills terrify me.
- If you could have a ride on any famous horse in the world competing right now, which would it be? Right now or past? This is tough. Man O War. Snow Man. From back back in the Day. Back in the day, Prince Pinache, Custom Made, Gem Twist, Courageous Comet. Now it would have to be Totilas or Quimbo. Or Windfall in his prime. But I rode his babies so thats close right?
- Describe your dream barn. Circular. 8 stalls. wash stall, tack stall and tack room and feed room. So 12 total "rooms". Open aisle in the middle. Pointy roof. Grey brick floors, Black stall doors, open grates. Redwood oak stalls. GAH GAH GAH.
- Favorite non-horsey activity? Watching movies
- Which is better: the book or the movie adaptation? The book. Always. But movies are entertaining.
- Can you cook? If so, what can you make? All the things.
- Favorite color?
Blue! - Describe yourself in 10 years.
Hot soccer mom. - How did you first start riding?
I begged my parents ad they bought me a month package lessons hoping I would get sick of it. Jokes on them.
- Get up early to ride, or stay up late? I'd rather ride late but we can't arrive to the barn any later than 9 and most nights I work past 11
- What do you do for a living? See previous questions
- What do you wish you did for a living? In a perfect world, retrain OTTBs. But to actually make money I want to work in a marketing department for any horse magazine or tack mag.
- If you could try any type of riding what would it be? POLO
- What is one thing about your horse you wish you could change? His hunters bump. Its bad. And Fugly.
- If you could change your horse's name to anything (registered or barn) what would it be? Naked. "And its Monica Vollmer riding Naked in 3rd place" LOLZ FOR DAYS.
- Facebook, Tumblr, or Instagram? Facebook
- Ebay, Craigslist, or Tack shop? EBAY
- If you could take on the life of any character in any TV show or movie, who would it be? Blake Lively's character on Gossip Girl. Her biggest worry is which hot guy to bang and where to shop that day.
- If you had an unlimited budget, what type of car or truck would you buy? Dodge RAM
- If you could move to any part of the world, where would it be? See previous questions
Monday, June 24, 2013
I Am Just The Worst
So. I didn't blog like I said I would...haha. OOps. Then I came back and saw I got nominated four times for the leibster blog award! Thanks guys, must go read about what that is :D
First a quick update...
Yankee has officially not been jumped in almost 6 weeks....what has happened with my life GAH. He has really been off since April. I think I've ridden maybe 4 times since then and lunged about 10 times...I suck.
But guys....its like a thousand degrees here. And I can barely afford his board even with 3 jobs soooo I just haven't had time!
Yanks is GREAT though. He loves time off because he gets to get fat and shiny and stuff his face with expensive hay and grain :P I lunged him two days ago, and rode last night and it is VERY obvious how much muscle he has lost in his ass end. Depressing, but I'm going to suck it up and get up at 5:30 at least 4 days a week to ride. I WILL.
I DID make it on the barn team for the Show Me State Games (mini Olympics) for dressage and that is in 4 weeks...so I actually have to ride, haha! We are getting polo shirts made and I'm goign to paint our logo on our saddle pads. How cuuuuute. Matchy matchy.
Last week I was in Ohio visiting my family and got to see the mare I sold before I moved here. She was a total chesnut mare bitch but I loved her. We went riding and it was super fun! Love seeing horses I've sold :)
In other news, like a thousand people have asked me for drawings and paintings and I can barely keep them straight, let alone DO them! I work 60 hours a week people! However, I'm going to set up a FB page for orders, and get the link to my art blog (its still in the construction phase!) if anyone wants something! I do more than horses too by the way :)
Those are the most recent ones I have done but I can do so much more! I don't think I posted the commission I did for Matthew B and his GF, but it was of her late horse Zylan.
More later with the Liebster thing and riding stuffs. Mwah.
First a quick update...
Yankee has officially not been jumped in almost 6 weeks....what has happened with my life GAH. He has really been off since April. I think I've ridden maybe 4 times since then and lunged about 10 times...I suck.
But guys....its like a thousand degrees here. And I can barely afford his board even with 3 jobs soooo I just haven't had time!
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| A late night visit after work |
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| Lookin good even after time off |
Last week I was in Ohio visiting my family and got to see the mare I sold before I moved here. She was a total chesnut mare bitch but I loved her. We went riding and it was super fun! Love seeing horses I've sold :)
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| Dutchess is not amused |
In other news, like a thousand people have asked me for drawings and paintings and I can barely keep them straight, let alone DO them! I work 60 hours a week people! However, I'm going to set up a FB page for orders, and get the link to my art blog (its still in the construction phase!) if anyone wants something! I do more than horses too by the way :)
More later with the Liebster thing and riding stuffs. Mwah.
Sunday, June 9, 2013
Internet
Just a quick word to say I haven't died. Yankee hasn't died.....but my internet had. I didn't have it for over a week and posting from my phone is a bitch. Which I'm doing now...
Nothing much fun happened since May 23 but a few interesting things did, and I shall be posting soon when I return to Columbia!
After reading a backlog of like 10 posts per blogger, it seems that May was the month of broken ponies in the blogsphere :(
Hopefully everyones ponehs will be on the mend!
Nothing much fun happened since May 23 but a few interesting things did, and I shall be posting soon when I return to Columbia!
After reading a backlog of like 10 posts per blogger, it seems that May was the month of broken ponies in the blogsphere :(
Hopefully everyones ponehs will be on the mend!
Thursday, May 23, 2013
I Can't Even
I can't even think of a title for this post. Absolute fuckery? Of course this happens to me? I might the universes worst horse owner? Wherein I dump all my hard earned money on horse related expenses? Why do I never have GOOD luck? Wherein I almost faint? All those titles are acceptable.
The vet came.
Before I explain the ratchet fuckery that was this mornings vet appointment I would like to make a disclaimer: Shit happens and people make mistakes.
So remember LAST WINTER when Yankee got some weird fungus, his tailbone got infected and all his tail hair fell out? Yeah. Well apparently it never healed all the way and has been festering/growing/something since then and I NEVER NOTICED. How is that possible??? I obsess over that tail. Longtime followers know. They know the pain that was my horses' gorgeous thick tail losing half its volume.
WHen the fungus healed up, it "calloused" as the vet liked to say. The bone thickened at the end, almost like scar tissue. However, verrrrrrrrrry slowly it grew. Which I didn't notice because of how painfully slow it was growing.
Until it started producing copious amounts of pus. Noticed that approx 6 days ago when I went to give his tail its weekly bath. I searched for a wound and couldnt really find one so I washed it with scrub, put fly pintment on it and let it be. There was a lot of hair surrounding it. I kept checking on it until two days ago when it starting bleeding profusely. I chopped a shitload of his tailhair off (Yes, I cried) to further investigate and I almost fainted when I cut all the hair away and the tip of his tail came apart. Yes literally CAME APART from the rest of his tailbone. Apparently the "growth" was beginning to fall off and I never noticed because it was still fused to the tailbone and looked normal until a week ago.
IMMEDIATELY DIAL VET FRANTICALLY.
I think I laid awake for two nights fretting, worrying and telling myself I was quite possibly THE WORST owner in history.
Luckily the vet reassured me I was not and I did the right thing to call. I also told him that I felt bad for not calling last week when it was just pussing a little and he reassured me again that even if I had called then, the result would have been the same.
Remove the bottom 3 inches of his tail head. WHAT.
SO I got to see that ans almost fainted again, mixed with horrendous feelings of guilt, shame and hearing my bank account going cha-ching! cha-ching! OF COURSE I was exceptionally worried for my horse but he never felt it and up until last night his tail NEVER bothered him.
Hearing your horses' tail get chopped off is a sickening sound and I practically burst into tears in guilt, feeling like I did my horse a disservice by not noticing. How much more thoroughly could I have checked his tailbone? I obsessively did. I guess I'm just a dumb ass and he had to pay for it.
So, sedative, farm call, minor surgery, extraction, medications and a biopsy later I can't even imagien what the total for my idiocy will be.
I know for a fact I won't be able to pay the vet in full for the bill, but they at least accept payments but I feel better knowing I did the right thing for my horse. I might be a little harsh on myself but I feel horrible- I feel liek I should've noticed my horses' god damn tail falling apart. He seems no worse for the wear though and I left him happily munching hay.
I'm going to hide under my covers in shame though for a week or 5.
The vet came.
Before I explain the ratchet fuckery that was this mornings vet appointment I would like to make a disclaimer: Shit happens and people make mistakes.
So remember LAST WINTER when Yankee got some weird fungus, his tailbone got infected and all his tail hair fell out? Yeah. Well apparently it never healed all the way and has been festering/growing/something since then and I NEVER NOTICED. How is that possible??? I obsess over that tail. Longtime followers know. They know the pain that was my horses' gorgeous thick tail losing half its volume.
WHen the fungus healed up, it "calloused" as the vet liked to say. The bone thickened at the end, almost like scar tissue. However, verrrrrrrrrry slowly it grew. Which I didn't notice because of how painfully slow it was growing.
Until it started producing copious amounts of pus. Noticed that approx 6 days ago when I went to give his tail its weekly bath. I searched for a wound and couldnt really find one so I washed it with scrub, put fly pintment on it and let it be. There was a lot of hair surrounding it. I kept checking on it until two days ago when it starting bleeding profusely. I chopped a shitload of his tailhair off (Yes, I cried) to further investigate and I almost fainted when I cut all the hair away and the tip of his tail came apart. Yes literally CAME APART from the rest of his tailbone. Apparently the "growth" was beginning to fall off and I never noticed because it was still fused to the tailbone and looked normal until a week ago.
IMMEDIATELY DIAL VET FRANTICALLY.
I think I laid awake for two nights fretting, worrying and telling myself I was quite possibly THE WORST owner in history.
Luckily the vet reassured me I was not and I did the right thing to call. I also told him that I felt bad for not calling last week when it was just pussing a little and he reassured me again that even if I had called then, the result would have been the same.
Remove the bottom 3 inches of his tail head. WHAT.
SO I got to see that ans almost fainted again, mixed with horrendous feelings of guilt, shame and hearing my bank account going cha-ching! cha-ching! OF COURSE I was exceptionally worried for my horse but he never felt it and up until last night his tail NEVER bothered him.
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| I spared you guys pictures of the actual tailbone |
So, sedative, farm call, minor surgery, extraction, medications and a biopsy later I can't even imagien what the total for my idiocy will be.
I know for a fact I won't be able to pay the vet in full for the bill, but they at least accept payments but I feel better knowing I did the right thing for my horse. I might be a little harsh on myself but I feel horrible- I feel liek I should've noticed my horses' god damn tail falling apart. He seems no worse for the wear though and I left him happily munching hay.
I'm going to hide under my covers in shame though for a week or 5.
Tuesday, May 14, 2013
Trail Rides
A couple days ago the girls and I hauled (not with my truck) to Three Creeks trails to celebrate spring. It was GORGEOUS 65 degrees, perfect for a ride. I was actually a little chilly. I think thats the only time I rode that week though and I haven't ridden since.
I paid dearly for our fun though, and the very next day I came down with a raging death fever and haven't felt very good since then. You ask, "you seem like youre always sick?" Why yes. Yes I am. Thanks to an immunity disorder (not life threatening, don't worry), I spent my childhood with a fever, and my teenage years with a persistent cold. Then in college I pretty much had the flu every month, and now I basically live feeling like death everyday. Like, literally everyday. So thanks to that in ADDITION to allergies, its really hard to get out of bed everyday. More than usual. Ugh. So that sucks.
Anyways, here are some boring pictures of us galavanting in the pretty death flowers and frolicking in the water. Yanks had a good time with his buddies.
I paid dearly for our fun though, and the very next day I came down with a raging death fever and haven't felt very good since then. You ask, "you seem like youre always sick?" Why yes. Yes I am. Thanks to an immunity disorder (not life threatening, don't worry), I spent my childhood with a fever, and my teenage years with a persistent cold. Then in college I pretty much had the flu every month, and now I basically live feeling like death everyday. Like, literally everyday. So thanks to that in ADDITION to allergies, its really hard to get out of bed everyday. More than usual. Ugh. So that sucks.
Anyways, here are some boring pictures of us galavanting in the pretty death flowers and frolicking in the water. Yanks had a good time with his buddies.
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| Bitch, I'm fabulous |
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| The paints :( Fancy LOVED the water |
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| Currently my new fav pic of the boy and me |
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| Love that crazy mane |
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| That tail doh>>>> |
Thursday, May 9, 2013
Easier Muttered Than Completed
Well.
I might be 10% over my meltdown last week. I almost am over losing my entry fee for Mill Creek. I'm 100% over wanting to quit riding. More or less in part to ALL of my horse peeps. Which includes the virtually connected ones. I appreciate the kind and encouraging words. I know its difficult to tolerate whiny tantrums, but I was being almost 47% serious about quitting all together. I didn't ride for almost 2 weeks. Jackie jumped him once and I lunged but mostly I just laid around when I wasnt working.
I had to think REALLY hard for about a week if this is really what I wanted to do. I barely slept most of that time, but in the end, I just cant throw away my whole life. I've been riding most of it and I consider it the most important part of my life. So what would I do if I quit? Most likely go out to bars more. And then I'd most likely become an alcoholic. And that wouldn't be good. SO there's that revelation. And what would I do with all my tack? I thought about the LITERAL thousands of dollas I've spent on it and I just could not force myself to put it up for sale. I just couldnt. I'm a tack whore and I actually have fond feelings for my gear. They're like...weird pets. Pets? Either way, I couldn't do it. I just couldn't. I started thinkign baotu all the horses who've worn my saddles, and all the fantastic times I've had in them. All the blue ribbons won, all the river swims, all the field gallops, all the courses jumped, all the falls fallen, all the transitions taken, all the trail rides...and I just couldn't get ride of it all.
What really hit me the hardest were jackies words-
"You need to suck it up. You're being a baby. You KNOW you couldn't not jump a jump again. You just need to remember what it feels like to have fun, why you love riding. You need to go gallop your horse and let the wind whip in your hair and the tears streak your face from how fast you're flying. Then you'll remember"
She knows me best.
I also spent several evenings just staring at my horse. In the pasture. In his stall. Watching his cute little face. His tail flip off flies. His eager looks when I bring grain or put him out on grass. There's NO WAY I could get rid of that. I listed him for lease for all of 45 minutes before I canceled the ad. I just couldn't. I was being stupid.
So I reevaluted. I can't show this year. OK. Get over it. I can do MAYBE a few local shows if I can get rides, sicne theyre cheaper, but no eventing. So that blows. But. I still have a sound, perfect, beautiful horse to enjoy. And lots of trails. And jumps to jump.
So I need something. I'v enever been good at setting goals without shows, since winning is everything to me. I can't explain it to you guys, but I'm HELLAS competitive and I just want to win. Second just isn't good enough. I was pissed at my first dressage show because I got a 68% and that put me in second. Most people would kill for that. I was not happy. Not happy at all. I have to change. I have to find why riding is fun, even without shows. Lots of people do it.
So I'm going to try to set mini goals. Nail those transitions. School those leg yeilds. Finally teach Yanks flying changes. tackle the problematic vertical fences. Mini goals.
A lot easier said than done though. I lose motivation to ride wihtout shows. I rode twice in the past two weeks. It will be even harder in the summer when its a thousand degrees outside. But its ok. I still get to pet my horse and watch his funny faces. And I love that.
I might be 10% over my meltdown last week. I almost am over losing my entry fee for Mill Creek. I'm 100% over wanting to quit riding. More or less in part to ALL of my horse peeps. Which includes the virtually connected ones. I appreciate the kind and encouraging words. I know its difficult to tolerate whiny tantrums, but I was being almost 47% serious about quitting all together. I didn't ride for almost 2 weeks. Jackie jumped him once and I lunged but mostly I just laid around when I wasnt working.
I had to think REALLY hard for about a week if this is really what I wanted to do. I barely slept most of that time, but in the end, I just cant throw away my whole life. I've been riding most of it and I consider it the most important part of my life. So what would I do if I quit? Most likely go out to bars more. And then I'd most likely become an alcoholic. And that wouldn't be good. SO there's that revelation. And what would I do with all my tack? I thought about the LITERAL thousands of dollas I've spent on it and I just could not force myself to put it up for sale. I just couldnt. I'm a tack whore and I actually have fond feelings for my gear. They're like...weird pets. Pets? Either way, I couldn't do it. I just couldn't. I started thinkign baotu all the horses who've worn my saddles, and all the fantastic times I've had in them. All the blue ribbons won, all the river swims, all the field gallops, all the courses jumped, all the falls fallen, all the transitions taken, all the trail rides...and I just couldn't get ride of it all.
What really hit me the hardest were jackies words-
"You need to suck it up. You're being a baby. You KNOW you couldn't not jump a jump again. You just need to remember what it feels like to have fun, why you love riding. You need to go gallop your horse and let the wind whip in your hair and the tears streak your face from how fast you're flying. Then you'll remember"
She knows me best.
I also spent several evenings just staring at my horse. In the pasture. In his stall. Watching his cute little face. His tail flip off flies. His eager looks when I bring grain or put him out on grass. There's NO WAY I could get rid of that. I listed him for lease for all of 45 minutes before I canceled the ad. I just couldn't. I was being stupid.
So I reevaluted. I can't show this year. OK. Get over it. I can do MAYBE a few local shows if I can get rides, sicne theyre cheaper, but no eventing. So that blows. But. I still have a sound, perfect, beautiful horse to enjoy. And lots of trails. And jumps to jump.
So I need something. I'v enever been good at setting goals without shows, since winning is everything to me. I can't explain it to you guys, but I'm HELLAS competitive and I just want to win. Second just isn't good enough. I was pissed at my first dressage show because I got a 68% and that put me in second. Most people would kill for that. I was not happy. Not happy at all. I have to change. I have to find why riding is fun, even without shows. Lots of people do it.
So I'm going to try to set mini goals. Nail those transitions. School those leg yeilds. Finally teach Yanks flying changes. tackle the problematic vertical fences. Mini goals.
A lot easier said than done though. I lose motivation to ride wihtout shows. I rode twice in the past two weeks. It will be even harder in the summer when its a thousand degrees outside. But its ok. I still get to pet my horse and watch his funny faces. And I love that.
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